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9/2/15 07:50 pm
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 im so ready for my room change omg. ive only got two more weeks and then im changing but its got to the stage where i just want to get on and do ALL OF THE THINGS to get settled into the room (can you tell ive never had to work a notice before, i dont know how some of the people i work with have done it so many times, its so frustrating omg)

today ive also twisted my back funny and without noticing have scratched my arm quite well. how does that happen :S

now onto bands of the day.....todays letter is I




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7/2/15 01:44 pm
kittysour: (sergetour)
 im watching loads of different driving lesson video things on youtube, and the main thing ive found out is that jesus i did a lot on my first lesson!! some of these people arent even doing the stuff i was on their third lesson, no wonder i felt like i was confused and out of my depth. i mean he was getting me to not only drive around corners (a lot of corners omg) but also changing gears AND then pulling up to junctions and stuff....all of this and all i could think of was omg how do i steer properly?! haha no wonder i was left a bit O.O and not as excited as i thought i would be when it was over.

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6/2/15 07:03 pm
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 first driving lesson was....interesting. i think i thought i would have been more giddy/excited after but i was mainky calm and hmm a lot. i mean i did enjoy it somewhat, it just terrifies me to think that someone put me in a car and then made me MOVE the car, on a road! where other cars were! i did a lot of left turns, i got totally confused in regards to my feet annnnd why is steering so difficult? i mean is it just practise or what?! but i have another lesson next friday though so i wasnt too traumatised :)

now onto the bands. today the letter is F so.... (and again ive gone for different genres)







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5/2/15 07:14 pm
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 im feeling a bit blah today and i cant seem to shake it :/

im also really nervous about tomorrow.

but now its time for my favourite E bands. today the two are complete opposites and i kind of love that






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4/2/15 06:31 pm
kittysour: (tomandserge bbs)
 i woke up feeling rubbish about the whole stuff yesterday, so i posted a passive agressive blah on facebook then ranted at a few of the girls i work who i actually like (okay it was just two and my cousin) and now i do feel much better. mental note: do not keep things locked up omg

IN OTHER NEWS, I START DRIVING LESSONS ON FRIDAY AND IM LOLARSLY LOLLING AND WONDERING WHERE II CAN BUY A CRASH  HELMET AND OTHER PROTECTIVE GEAR IN SUCH SHORT NOTICE LOLOLOL

todays bands are...

newest band that i seem to like and want to listen to mostly...Drenge



Deftones! omgyes


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3/2/15 08:33 pm
kittysour: (tomandserge bw)
 work went well, early years came in and they will write a report and blah blah blah. i did find iut that one of the girls i work with is going to start working properly and doing all she should be doing because shes been promoted to my job when i swap rooms. how rude is that. i actually told her that was a shit thin to do but eh, im just glad that im out of that room by the end of the month!

the used are in newcastle on sunday, im actually going ice skating (lol i know) on that day but im not sure i want to try and get a ticket. i loved seeing them last time (many years ago) but ive not been into the last couple of albums so im a bit :/ plus i keep thinking, im gonna be out all day with actual people! me! socialising! with PEOPLE! do i then want to go alone to see a band...ahahaha can you believe this is actually coming out of my brain. i dunno, i guess ive got a few days to choose since there are still tickets left

now onto the band challenge

today is the letter C so ive chosen....

Chapel club (theyve sadly split up now and the second album was a bit rubbish but ohmy the first album was preeeetty)



Carl Barat





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2/2/15 08:28 pm
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found out my start date for the new room will be the 22nd of this month. eek!

now for the fave bands thing. today is the letter B which obvzly makes me think of

Brand new



Babyshambles


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1/2/15 02:30 pm
kittysour: (sergetour)
as a challenge to myself ive decided that since its february, im going to post my (february) favourite bands from A-Z each day! some das it will be only one band, others i know there will be more because im indecisive and needy like that ;)

sooo to start us off at A....
Alkaline Trio!


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31/1/15 03:19 pm
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 im so ill, my chest feels all tight and i have no energy apart from when im having a coughing fit so my ribs and stomach ache like a mofo. i do not approve of these germs, and since ive felt like rubbish since at least wednesday with no improvement (well the aches in my legs have gone) i think its time for the whole being poorly thing to QUIT IT.

in other none ailment news. the libertines are headlining at t in the park!!! and there are rumours that kasabian will also be there!!!! AND SO I NEED TO GO ASWELL OKAY THNKUPLZ. its been a few years (lesigh) since my last festival but eeep! i always said i would love to do t in the park since i went to oxegen 3 times, and they are so familiar except at T i wouldnt have to get an aeroplane to get there! urgh i am so needy and kind of flaily at the thought of it all again but gah PREEEEEETTTTTY *GRABBYHANDS*

and now that ive got myself all giddy and out of breath (i really wish i was joking *gaspgasp*) im gonna go and chill for a bit even though i am beyond needy to not chill since ive been doing that for days now. my life you guys *shakes head*

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27/1/15 10:53 pm
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 i finally found out today that i am getting the room change at work. i have to wait till after the half term before i get to move into the toddler room! i was so excited then i got so nervous, then i felt like i was going to be sick but now im like woo *fistpump* bring it on! it also helps that the room leader is someone ive worked with before and shes lovely :)

so i think tomorrow i will be googling acitivities to do with 1 year olds, and then see if ive got the eyfs at home somewhere since i will be doing daily planning O.o 

i will not be thinking of all the little ones i work with now who seem to know theres somethings going on, the last few days a couple of different kids have kept asking if im staying with them/in the room because they will miss me if i dont look after them, urgh my heart. 

but yes, eeek! after ten years i finally get a change!

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25/1/15 10:23 pm
kittysour: (sergetour)
im searching for my old fic but ended up with this lovely photo instead. *LEHAPPYSIGH*

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25/1/15 09:16 pm
kittysour: (tomandserge bw)
so im sorting through old kasabian fic to post on Ao3 and i came across this picture, and well i couldnt not post it, i mean lookit theeeeeeem <33333




 photo TomMeighanQAwards2011InsideArrivals6z_Tezhcbfhl.jpg

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24/1/15 02:47 pm
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so uhm why did no one tell me to start watching hbo's "looking" its kind of funny, kind of adorable and i want to sit and watch all the episodes! which considering each one is only 30 minutes is so totally doable

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23/1/15 01:51 pm
kittysour: (Default)
 i always read and hear people talk about triggers but never really gave it a thought when it comes to myself. obvzly i know the things that make me uncomfortable but theres never been anything thats made me think NO STOP.

turns out that i do indeed have a trigger, and there is something that makes me shout out stop, and yeah its the thing i mentioned yesterday. that one little incident still plagues me to this day, but i thought i was just being overdramatic and not wanting to forget it (oh how i wish) but its still there, always in the back of my mind when people talk about getting drunk and alcohol, its there when the girls at work invite me out for drinks. its there when i mention someone making a joke about the whole thing, and i get to listen to my mam get so angry and upset, and own up to the fact that she was so scared incase i came away that night not only with a hangover and bruised ego. but also a baby! (this was a thing she only mentioned yesterday, she was actually so scared that i had been left alone passed out with my clothes all wrong, that anything or anyone could have done something to me, and isnt that the saddest thing about this all. i know im not the only one affected by this) its the way my chest tightens and tears cone to my eyes and i have to walk away (when with other people) or say outloud I CANT TALK ABOUT THIS when with my mam. 

today i feel fine, mentally im okay, im not medicated anymore! woo! theres just this one thing in my life that seems to be clawing back up and clinging on. and i dont want it to because i am happy, i feel like i have moved on and found out who and what makes me feel comfortable and well and i dont want anything to spoil that or take me back. i dont know what it is about the last couple of months that has triggered me so much but its been a bloody tough time that i would pay or do anything to forget.

but now i have to go and get dressed and sorted because ive lazed in bed all day and the mumster will be back soon to take me shopping!

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22/1/15 07:30 pm
kittysour: (tomandserge bw)
 what a day!

the teacher didnt find the stuff i needed, and her explanation was ridiculous (the labels i put up couldnt stay up because the kids kept pulling them off! uhm hello tell them to stop!!) i went on my dinner only to come back and find out the room was amess/chaos so the boss wasnt happy. then i find out that some people still think its hilarious to talk about the time i got spiked and passed out. i told my mam because urgh, she went crazy, i then had to stop talking because i felt like i was going to have a panic attack and again i have to ask WHEN DO I GET TO FORGET THIS ALL!? if i knew someone was uncomfortable about something i wouldnt keep bringing it up, especially to joke about it.

im so glad im off tomorrow so i can just chill and stop feeling rubbish (a good nights sleep will help to!)

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21/1/15 11:54 am
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 just woke up after a very long sleep, which was very much needed after the notsleepin/early mornings ive had. i was supposed to visit the twins today for the fist time in omg (srsly its been too long) but my cousins not feeling well so i think were postponing till next week now.

did i update yesterday? i cant remember? eh ill do a wuick recap because i had a really good day. i was in my own preschool room yesterday and i was running the room, and the kids were great, we did all our jobs and had fun and it went so smoothky that at one point i wished that i had just stuck in with my degree so i could actually just run the room MY way. hut then i gave my head a wobble and remembered that if i had stayed on at uni it would have took about seven years (i could only do it part time, because i obvzly work....idk how they worked out it would take that long) plus the wages i would have gotten wouldnt have justified the time soent gaining the degree. BUT ANYWAY yeah that was a suprise little thought bubble i ad. 

i also once agaireally wished i could drive, which my mam thinks is a good ting because if im that desperate that when i do ge to to learn, i wont mess about and will hopefully pass soon (like i would mess about with the price of lessons PFFFFT! robbery i say)

so today is goingto be spent chillin i think, i did wake up earlier to ALL THE SNOW but luckly after a wuick glance outside i think its kostly gone. i do not approve of snow!

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19/1/15 08:47 pm
kittysour: (Default)
 snow is evil and wrong and grr to people who think its great *fistshakes*

at work i was put in the 2-3year olds room, it was fun, exhausting but i guess thats the age for it! i also got shown how to open up the nursery which ahahaha what the actual shit omg. like who would trust me to do that D:

i THEN had to go to another setting to look after the afterschool kids and then with the snow and my mam not liking the whole driving in snow thing, it took quite a while to get home!

now im sleepy and just waiting for my food to be finally cooked then i think i shall go to bed because i start at 7.30 again tomorrow :(

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18/1/15 05:10 pm
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i had a really good time last night, we (me and three other girls) went out for a meal and then a drink in the bar upstairs. it was just so lovely to sit and talk to people with no bitching or pretending to have fun and get drunk.

we did discuss the reason why i dont drink alcohol anymore and for once i was listened to and actually agreed with, which made me breathe a bit easier even if i did shaky talking about it *eyeroll*

speaking of shaky! the lack of wibbleness before i went out changed a little just before hand when i decided to paint my nails. my hands got so shaky and meh which made the whole process so much fun NOT. im surprised i didnt paint my whole fingers towards the end lol

today i have been sorting out all my scrapbooking stuff (and getting excited because omg i had forgotten just how much stuff i had recieved) now i just need to sort out ALL those photos into some kind of order :|

i also tried fixing my glasses (again) the shop made them just a little too tight, after about three times of going back and forth. so i googled and found out that a hair dryer will heat the plastic enough to bend etc. so yeah i did that, lets see how they go now or if i end up just throwing them against the wall *cough*
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